Sunday, October 31, 2010


What a weekend it has been in our house already! Between Halloween and Hunter's birthday, we've been busy, busy, busy! Two things (aside from a post of ISO) are coming soon - Hunter's birthday post, as well as a birth story post - something I relive every year to remind myself why I hated being pregnant. It's makes a little bit happier to remind myself of that when I'm angry at other things. :) Anywho's keeping up with 30 days of blogging...

Day 20 - Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future
I don't see myself marrying anyone other than my husband. I haven't seen that for a long, long time -even if we were states away and not in a relationship for a long period of time. Even if I was in other relationships - it always came down to the fact that he wasn't Chase. No one was ever going to be the same as my Chase. I told Chase soon after we met that we were going to get married someday - at 18, he thought I was crazy. Guess I'm not so crazy after all!

Day 21 - A picture of something that makes you happy
For me, when my husband brings me home a Slurpee, it's like he's brought me flowers or jewelery. I know he was thinking about me, and wanting to do something special for me. Slurpees get me every time! I love them! I'm pretty sure I'm going to go get one now - who cares if it's 8AM. It's 5:00 somewhere?? :)

Day 22 - What makes you different from everyone else
A lot of things! I'll start with the fact that Chase I didn't do this "conventionally." I was pregnant with Hunter at 20 - I was freaked out when I told Chase I was pregnant - so scared he was going to leave me (I did give him that option). But what Chase did next describes the basis for the next 5 years of our life - when I told him, he asked me why I was crying. He told me I didn't need to be crying - that it was okay - we would make it work. And we have. We waited two years to get married - we didn't want to marry because of Hunter - we wanted to marry for us -and we did. I see a lot of couples marrying because of getting pregnant - and while I've seen it work out - I've also seen it not work out - and knew it wasn't for us. We were lucky enough to live with my parent's for the first 18 months of Hunter's life while we saved our money. Because of their generosity, we were able to buy our first house when I was 22 and Chase was 23. And, since I was pregnant - I've felt that it was important to me to stay with my son at home for as long as possible. Through some creative thinking, and my business adventures, it's worked out well thus far. We might not always have everything we want - but we have everything we need - for now, that's plenty!

Thursday, October 28, 2010

My camera has a manual mode?

Ah! My first photography post - and we have Little Monkey Bizness to thank for it. Nothing like entertaining the kiddos (ie: Hunter and Saxon) with jumping, bouncing, sliding, and climbing while I sit, drink my iced caramel macchiato (do you know how long it just took me to spell macchiato?) and blog.

My parents were wonderful enough to see that I might actually have talent for taking pictures and invested in my future with my first digital SLR camera in 2005 - it was a Canon XT Rebel (which I also tried to purchase for myself, and got scammed...that shall be a story for another day). Anyways, on a trip back to visit, my Dad went out and put my camera on his business card and thus, Mom and Dad got me started into my future. I had never used a SLR before - I had never really taken actual photography classes before - all I knew was that I liked taking pictures. So, for the first years (it's embarrassing to admit) I took pictures in automatic mode. Ahh! I know. I cringe thinking about it today...but it's only shows how much I've grown.

When I first realized my camera had a "manual mode" I was trying to take pictures of Christmas lights. Another photographer helped me to start learning outside of automatic mode and I successfully took some pictures of Christmas lights that year. (Please excuse this photo - it was stolen from my Myspace account - I'll load the actual, much better quality version of it when I'm not at Monkey Bizness).

Since then, I've been learning more and more about things like ISO, white balance, aperture, and shutter speed. And I'm going to start telling all of YOU about those things so, if you're an automatic mode shooter too, you can start to learn how to cringe when someone says "automatic." It's almost like learning to drive a stick (which I can't do, btw).

Nowadays, I will shoot in automatic mode ONLY if I find myself in a desperate situation where I know my camera manual settings are all over the place due to taking a crazy shot and I need to get a picture taken RIGHT THAT SECOND.

So if you need help learning the different modes of your camera, stay tuned. Tutorials coming soon!

Day 19

Day 19 - Nicknames you have; why do you have them

I have had a lot of nicknames through the years! Holly is an easy name to nickname I think.

When I was little, my Mom would call me HollyWolly or Little Miss Hollywood and my Dad would call me HollyDolly. My sisters and Mom always called me Holly Kristina (not my name - it's Holly Kristeen. My brother-in-law used to call me HollyMolly.

In high school, I was "Hollah" and that lasted through a few Best Buy's - and now, I'm mostly just Holly, or Mommy.

Chase has always called me Crazy - he thinks I am - I am not. Lately, he's taken to referring to me as a dead fish - I'm hoping that one doesn't last long. For the record, he calls me dead fish because I'm always cold.

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

I've gotten bad at this "daily" stuff

Day 16 - Another picture of yourself

I don't really like posting pictures of just me...but, if you're going to insist, this was taken while snorkeling in the Dominican Republic. My hair was really long then - I almost miss it. Almost.

Day 17 - Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
This answer is going to be a little bit lame - I'll warn you now - but there is a blogger out there by the name of MckMama. In the blogging world, she's a bit of a household name. I've been following her for a long time - I believe her for a long time. But slowly, with a lot of things she said, she started to contradict herself. A lot. Things seemed to be "off." So, then, I started researching, and came across another blog site that has a lot of proof that she lies continuously. It made me a little bit mad - because I loved her. But, she just won't come out and admit the truths - so, I'd like to switch lives with her for one day, so I could come clean for her. It can't be fun living a life full of lies when you're being called out on it...and I don't want to ruin her life (it seems she's done enough of that on her own), but, I think everyone who followed her for years and years should be told the truth.

Day 18 - Plans/dreams/goals you have
I have a lot of plans and goals. Here's just a few:
*Have another child
*Don't ever put my kids in daycare
*Go to Austrailia and New Zealand
*Go sailing with my husband
*Continue to grow my business
*Read as much as humanly possible
*Own a small dog
*Own a house with a yard. And a garage. In a nice neighborhood. With good schools. Within walking distance.
*Be a great wife.

Sunday, October 24, 2010

Day 15

Day 15 - Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play

This is fun! Except I don't have an Ipod. Actually, I think Ipod's are really lame. In general, I think Apple is really lame even though I kinda sorta almost but not really want a Macbook. That's only because sometimes I'm a follower and when every other photographer I know has a Mac, I want to follow. But as my husband has told me many many times, our PCs do what I need them to do, and he knows how to fix them when they don't do what we need them to do. This is getting off subject.

I don't have an Ipod. I sorta share a MP3 player with my husband, although, it really is his (a Valentine's Day gift - the necklace he bought me is way better...). Usually, when I want music, I turn my Blackberry or PC to Pandora and stream away. l love Pandora. Anyways, I DO have a account where I store music for when I really need to listen to a certain song. So, I'll put that on shuffle and we'll see where we go. I have several different playlists on, however, I'm going to shuffle my "I go back" list and see if I can't dig up some memories.

1. "You'll think of me" Keith Urban
When I was living in Tucson, I had a boyfriend who was really a bad boyfriend to have. Not that he wasn't a good guy, because, for the most part, he was, but we were a bad couple. I don't like admitting that I used him, but I did - although I didn't realize it at the time. We had a lot of issues - most of which stemmed from the fact that I was in love with Chase and was only lying to myself trying to live a life without him. Anyways, when our relationship got to the worst points - right in the few months before I left Tucson - I listened to this song a lot. Mostly, I liked the part that said "Take your cat and leave my sweater" because we had a cat together, who I took. Anyways, I do think of him from time to time - we did have some great times, and he did mean a lot to me - but we are definitely better apart than together. He's one of the only guys from my past that I feel no reason to have a relationship with today - I have most of the others Facebooked - but, when I left Tucson, I left him behind, and he left me behind, and we moved on happily. Or at least, I hope he did.

2. "Little Black Back Pack" Stroke 9
I don't really think this song has any real meaning to me - except that my best friend, Mandy, introduced me to the song, and I loved it. I still do. That was a lot of years ago.

3. "Someday We'll Know" Mandy Moore, Jonathan Foreman
I used to really love Mandy Moore (well, I really still do actually), and I remember driving around in my first car, a 1990 blue Eclipse listening to this song. I listened to it a lot actually after I broke up with one my first "real" boyfriends, Adam. That was also a bad relationship (lol), but the song sort of fit at the time. It wasn't a bad breakup - "If I could ask God just one question...Why aren't you here with me? Someday we'll know, if love can move a mountain, someday we'll know, why the sky is blue. Someday we'll know why I wasn't meant for you." We were both young, and silly in "love" - although I soon found out that that love was really "puppy love." When we broke up, it was just because it wasn't working, we were young, and we wanted different things. We remained friends for awhile and although have lost touch over the years, this song will probably always remind me of him.

4. "It's Gonna Be Love" Mandy Moore
This is sort of embarrassing! I told you I loved Mandy Moore! :) This was one of my favorite songs around the time I was 15-16 or so. I remember that I had my own personal phone line (and answering machine of course) and the chorus of this song was the message on my machine. I was such a nerd. My answering machine was green though - cool, huh?

5. "I Go Back" Kenny Chesney
Well, isn't this song fitting?? My Mom bought me this CD for my last Easter at home. Oh - sorry - the Easter bunny bought me this CD. So this was a song of the last few months of my senior year, my last summer at home and my first few months in Phoenix. I always liked listening to it, and thinking about my past. It didn't really "fit" me, but it did get me thinking about certain songs that did make me go back. Some of which, I'm describing to you tonight. :) "Every time I hear that song, I go back. We all have a song that somehow stamped our lives - takes us to another place and time"

6. "Fake It" Seether
I think all I need to say about this song, is that it is another one from Tucson. I was a little messed up at that point of time in my life.

7. "Bouncing Off the Walls Again" Sugarcult
Oh, Ryan! I had a lot of boys in my life when I was a! Ryan was a friend of mine - he was an "older, cooler, college guy" who took an interest in me because he thought he could solve my life problems for me, or something like that. I liked him more than I probably should have - but - he was always just a friend - and typically a phone friend since college wasn't near my house. He made me listen to this song one time - and I was hooked.

8. "Your Guardian Angel" Red Jump Suit Apparatus
Aww - this really isn't a blast from the past (or at least not the far past) but when Chase and I were discussing the playlist for our wedding, we didn't agree on much. Chase and I have VERY different tastes in music (seriously, who likes Modest Mouse??) Well, I was really frustrated with the whole process - I didn't feel like he was taking it seriously, and more than half of what he was suggesting was far from wedding music...and then he played this song - and I knew I could marry him. I love this song so much now that it's even a ringer on my phone. And...I'm trying to embrace his music more (but seriously, who likes Modest Mouse??)

9. "Welcome to my Life" Simple Plan
This is song is bad, bad memories for me. My lovely sister (she truly is lovely) bought me this CD for my first Christmas in Phoenix. I was missing home really bad. I was missing Chase really bad. I was missing high school really bad. I was not doing well in Phoenix. I had said bf who we discussed above - but - he (and his friends) were very different from me, and did very different things than I was used to. I didn't want to spend Christmas with them - I wanted to be home with my family. The kicker for me came Christmas night when they sat around on the driveway, with a bonfire in the middle, and smoked weed. I don't smoke. Ever. And certainly not pot. This was a ritual for them, and I was always uncomfortable...but Christmas? Who smokes weed on Christmas? Not me. So I got into my wonderful rental - a 2005 Nissan Altima with 500 miles on it - and drove circles on the 101 listening to this CD and Chase. He saved me. And I'll always love him for that.

10. "Bubbly" Colbie Caillat
I love this song. I used to sing this song to Hunter when he was a baby. I would tickle his little toes. It always makes me smile when I hear this song and I think about how little he was. "You give me feelings that I adore. They start in my toes, make me crinkle my noes. Wherever it goes, I always know. That you make smile, please stay for awhile now, just take your time, wherever you go"

This is fun. Can I keep going?

11. "Lucky" Jason Mraz, Colbie Caillat
This is our song. Me and Chase. We listened to this song dozens upon dozens of times while we practiced our dance. It took us forever and a day to decide on a song - but the first time I heard this song, I was hooked. I loved it. Chase didn't mind it. It was totally a winner! I do really feel like Chase is my best friend - he has saved me so many times. He's protected me when I didn't want to be protected. And I am lucky. I know I'm lucky. And I won't ever let go. And in fact - Chase is away this weekend, so I just sent him part of that song in a voice message. I'm such a nerd at 11:21 at night.

12. "Anything But Mine" Kenny Chesney
This is me being lame. It's about another boy (duh!). Jellybean. Jellybean was an important part of my life - he was sort of...I don't even know. He was one of the greatest people to ever come into my life. He showed me a lot about love - and how powerful love could be. There was a lot of hurt and a lot of emotion in our short relationship - but we came out on top - friends. Jellybean came along after one of the many Chase breakups - and he was the first person to get me to realize that I might have a life outside of Chase. We spent an amazing summer together at the end of my senior year. At the end of the day - we wanted different things from our relationship and we weren't right for each other right then. There's no doubt in my mind that had we come into each other's lives 5 years down the road that we wouldn't have been together forever. I truly did love him - and he's one of the two people that I can say that about. There's a plan for everything though, and my plan has always been Chase - but Jellybean showed me so much, and help me grow and experience life in a different way - and for that - I am so grateful.

Alright, I think I'll end there. It's late, and I think I went pretty far down memory lane. For tonight - know this - I miss my husband, and I can't wait until he comes home tomorrow. This weekend has been fun for Nut and I, but I'm ready to see Chase, ready for my hugs and kisses. It was a little bit of a hard weekend for me emotionally - and - I feel ready to talk to my husband about the things that have been hurting me lately - so hopefully he can see that my bad mood was sort of justified.

Saturday, October 23, 2010


I really fell behind with blogging this week! My apologies!

The Nut is on fall break - which means no more "Mommy time" and Chase is out of town which really means no more "Mommy time" which in turn, means no more blogging time! I'm about to get us all caught up though!

Day 11 - Another picture of you and your friends

I know - I'm such a cliche Mom - but seriously, this kid is my best friend, and those dogs...well, they are two of a kind and even though I'm almost always mad at them, I couldn't imagine my life without them! And yes - Hunter has no hair. That's a story for another day!

Day 12 - How you found out about blogs and why you made one

When I was in high school, I had a live journal account. For my circle of friends, it was the "cool" thing to do, although for me, it came naturally. I've always been journaling and writing. It was a small stretch for me to now share my journal with the world, but I overcame that easily and wrote about anything and everything. Fast forward a few years, and once my husband and I moved into our house, I opened a "family blog" because I knew that someday I would want to remember all the trivial things that happened in our daily life. You can read my very first blog entry here!

Day 13 - A letter to someone who has hurt you recently
This is a hard one. I imagine I'm going to get emotional here because I'm going to have to dig deep and perhaps get raw. Here goes nothing I suppose...
Dear God -

I feel like You've let me down lately. I feel like I'm being tested - but I'm not sure why You need to test me in this way. I'm trying really hard to be a great wife, a great Mom - trying really hard to raise my family, grow my business and be everything to everybody. At the same time, I'm trying to give myself everything that I need and feel I deserve - but You're testing my ability to do that. Just this week - I was short with my husband, I cried tears that were unnecessary, I lost patience with my son, with my dogs, I was in a bad mood while doing things I love to do. And I can't help but blame You. I don't know why You're testing me like this. You have to be able to see how much it hurts me. I don't understand it. I want to - I pray to - I look to You for guidance and answers, but I feel like I'm not getting anything. I'm not sure how long I can continue on, holding my faith with You and feeling this hurt. I need to find some answers soon so I'm afraid I will stray from my faith. I don't want to, I really don't, but You're hurting me. My husband tries to be everything he can for me - my son is such a blessing - my life has SO many blessings and I think about those things - all those things that You've helped me achieved and have helped me find, and I am so grateful. But I've hurt my husband in this past year because of things I blame on You. You have to be able to see that I'm not handling it well. I can't test my marriage anymore than it's already been tested. I need to regain the ground I've lost, and be the wife I know I can be. I need Your help. I can not do this alone. I need you to help me get stronger. I'm trying to trust in that everything happens for a reason - but I need to find those reasons soon. Please help me to do that.
In Your name I pray,
Day 14 - A picture of you and your family
Minus my sister, brother-in-law, neice and nephew in Arizona, this is my family. They mean the world to me.

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Day 09

Day 09 - Something you're proud of in the past few days

In the past month and a half, my husband and I have been concentrating on making our relationship better - on meeting each others needs, making each other happy, and really concentrating on us. I feel like in that time, we've made a lot of strides. Our home seems more harmonious now. We're definately giving more than we're taking. I'm proud of us for trying everyday to make each other happy and loved. I'm hoping we can continue the trend we've been on and learn how to once again put each other first and our marriage above all else.

Monday, October 18, 2010

Day 8

Day 08 - Short term goals for this month and why

Humpty Dumpty! I don't typically set "goals" at the beginning of months. Every month there are things I accomplish, but it's never really a "goal" as much as it is a "I need to accomplish this" and then I do it. I don't feel like there is a choice involved - it's just what I need to do that month.

In October I need to -

*Plan my son's 4th birthday party
*Finish editing the wedding I did last month
*Start blogging more
*Shampoo our carpets
*Start researching new beds for our soon to be 4 year old
*Book more photo shoots than normal as I am on nanny vacation this week
*Sell some stuff on Craigslist to reduce our clutter and make way for new birthday toys
*Get more involved at Hunter's school, and with the other parents
*Finish the Alex Cross series and start Harry Potter 7

Those will all be accomplished by the end of October if they haven't been accomplished already.

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Day 7!

Day 07 - A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you

This was Hunter when he was about a year and a half old (ignore the date - in March of 2004, I was about to graduate high school and certainly didn't have an 18 month old - my technologically behind Mother doesn't know how to change the date on her camera...)

Anyways, he is totally the one who has had the biggest impact on me - no questions asked. He forced me to grow up (in a good way), made my relationship with my husband stronger and more complete, and has really made me the person I am today. Without Hunter, who knows where I would be or what I would be doing - but I know that I would be missing out on some of the best moments of my life. He is truly the light of my life. And I can say all that because he's in bed and no longer asking 20 questions in 20 seconds.


Saturday, October 16, 2010

Day 6!

Day 06 - Favorite super hero and why

Hum de hum! This is a good question - and one I'm not sure I've ever considered before. I do have an almost 4 year old Superhero obsessed son, so I am "pretty" well-schooled in my heroes. Hunter is a big fan of the normal - Batman, Spiderman, Superman. He wanted me to be Batgirl for Halloween. He's requested a Spiderman cake for his birthday party this year. I'm just not sure that I have a favorite, I decided instead to take a "Which Superhero are you quiz" to get my answer.

And I am...

Your results:
You are Superman

Wonder Woman
Green Lantern
Iron Man
The Flash

You are mild-mannered, good,
strong and you love to help others.

So, which Superhero are you??

Friday, October 15, 2010

Day 5

Day 05 - A picture of somewhere you’ve been to

I've been out of our wonderful country only one time, and it was to go on a fabulous honeymoon with my amazing husband. We went to Punta Cana in the Dominican Republic and had a blast. It was such a wonderful trip for us. Going back and digging up these pictures reminded me of just how close we were then. I'm happy, and proud, to say we're still as close today.

Thursday, October 14, 2010

Become a Fan, Win a shoot!

Hey local friends! I'm having a challenge on my fan page on Facebook. If I can double my fans from now until the end of the year, a fan will win a FREE photo shoot and CD with the images in 2011! Become a fan here:

Even if you're not local, become a fan and help those in Denver win a shoot!

Day 4

Day 04 - A habit that you wish you didn’t have

A little bit harder today! Having to admit to ones faults is never an easy task. I have small habits that don't typically hurt anyone other than myself - I bite and peel my nails (I know, who peels their nails, right?), and I chew my lips. Both are boredom habits.

A bigger habit that affects my family as well is I'm a tad addicted to my Blackberry and/or computer and/or digital reader. Sitting down and watching tv (which I tend to do a lot of in the fall, hah) drives me crazy - I can't just sit there and watch, even if it's my most favoritest show in the world, or, even football! I have to be checking emails, browsing Craigslist, hanging out on Facebook or more recently, Blogfrog, playing a Tetris-esq game on my cell phone, or reading a book on my digital reader. I can't just sit at any point in time without some type of device in my hands. I know it drives my husband crazy.

There are parts of me, and what I do, that mean I just can't toss my Blackberry aside. No, I don't need to be playing mindless games for hours at a time, but, I do like to have it somewhere in the vicinity, so when I get a work related email, I can get back to my clients in as timely of a manner as possible. I strongly dislike keeping people waiting long for a reply, although sometimes I do get so backed up, even my Blackberry can't help me out.

Sitting and relaxing and just being with my husband while we watch something on tv is something I am trying to work on though. What's your bad habit?

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Day 3

Today is way easy!

Day 03 - A picture of you and your friends

This was taken at my bachelorette party. They are my three sisters - and the ones who have been the closest to me for the longest time. The one on the far right is not my "blood" sister, but, she's been there since I was 6, and is one of the most important people in my life.

I've been incredibly lucky over the past 4 years to have made some wonderful mommy friends with little ones - people who relate to my every day life, and have been there for me through some struggles...but these three will always take the cake. They are the best!

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Day 2

Day 02 - The meaning behind your Blog name

It's pretty self explanatory - I started this blog with the intention of going out and finding followers all over the world as opposed to my tight-knit friends and family like my other blogs. It's had a slow start (business on my part mostly to blame). Anyways, I wanted something that people would be able to remember, that might draw in an audience - and well...we are a little bit crazy :).

Monday, October 11, 2010

30 days

Sometimes I need topics to get me going - throughout the day I think about things I'd like to write about, but by the time I have time to sit down and do it, the idea behind a post is gone, or has been thought through so much that it's no longer interesting to me. I've decided to take part of 30 days of blogging to get me climbing the ropes!

Today: Day 01 - A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself

I don't know if I have a recent picture of myself, so I'll skip that for now - onto the facts!

- I love the smell of Cabbage Patch dolls. I have a few Cabbage Patch's boxed up, just so I can open the boxes every so often and take a whiff.
- I love to cook and bake - but I need a crowd to really get me going. I love making food for other people.
- I also love hosting parties. It's so much work, but I get so much enjoyment out of it. We don't do it nearly enough.
- I know more Wiggles songs than one could possibly imagine by heart. Sometimes, I burst into song when I'm all on my own. My son hasn't watched The Wiggles in 2 years, but the songs have stayed with me.
- My second toes is longer than my first.
- My house is usually a complete disaster, but I love to pretend it's clean.
- I want to own a little dog so badly, but I'm not "allowed."
- I've been obsessed with frogs since my early teens. I have tons of frog stuffed animals, figurines, and 2 live fire belly toads (which probably need fed now that I'm thinking about them...)
- I recently (as in a month+) painted my bedroom and bathroom after living in our white walled house for 2+ years. I'm now completely in love with both rooms and sometimes sit in one just to stare at the walls. They (as in the painted walls) make me incredibly happy.
- I can throw a football really well. I once pegged my sister in the head from 100 feet away.
- I crave Jimmy Johns on an hourly basis.
- I'm obsessed with Slurpees from 7-11. Mountain Dew and Cherry mixed together. $1.18 for a refill. I have two refill cups...just in case one is in the dishwasher.
- I get nervous when I'm alone. I'm always pretty sure someone is going to kill me.
- I will read over 100 books this year.
- I hate being cold, so I'm a little bit obsessed with all thing soft and warm. Blankets, socks, robes.

And now the picture - about 2 months ago at the Bronco/Steeler game with my husband.